A therapy rage page
Pretty soon I will be needing a car. My car leaks oil very badly. I have no extra cash to cover it. It's a tight situation.
Humanity is under attack. The attack is not from large tentacle-flailing aliens, but from invaders so small they can barely be seen, and so strange they are not even clearly alive. All over planet Earth, the human home world, DNA-based humans are being invaded by the RNA-based SARS-CoV2. The virus, which creates a disease known as COVID-19, specializes in reprogramming human cells into zombies that manufacture and release copies of itself. Pictured here is a high magnification image of a human cell covered by attacking novel coronavirus SARS-CoV2 (orange). Epic battles where two species square off in a fight to the death are not unusual on Earth, with several just involving humans typically ongoing at any time. Even so, most humans are predicted to survive. After several years, humanity expects to win this war -- but only after millions of humans have died and trillions of coronaviruses have been destroyed. Wash your hands: Tips for humans on how to survive this SARS-CoV2 assault https://apod.nasa.gov/apod/image/2006/SarsCov2_Niaid_4096.jpg
Lead every day. Do the right thing. Reach for amazing. Seek first to understand. Act as one. Live life passionately.
So confused lately trying to help everyone family news keep coming from also directions everyone has their own life it’s hard culture religion personal preference personal interest and desire sometime I don’t know when though stop just let everything float just focus on myself not worried about other things it’s so hard I’m sitting here alone thinking about variety of things it is strange world it is a very strange world and I have no idea how to Focus better myself on any other things I’ve decided to work two jobs to keep myself floating busy play a lot of video games avoid thinking sleep early get up early go work asleep and I think strangers in our mind life itself no one can understand or believe there’s a strange world. Everyone thinks differently about their life several things and expect different after death expect different by simply driving from point a to point B in a lot a lot of things I have no idea how to record or organize all of it other than just talking to myself talking to myself talking to my phone posting things online randomly night and sleep have no idea how to figure all of this out.
You live and learn. Families have secrets and nothing is predictable anymore. the shock of news makes you think and question things. The worry the overthinking the overreaction. It can sometimes drive you crazy. Sometimes you sit and not sure how you can help, try to be nice and stand by others to bring themselves into a mindset of this is not worth it. It's sad.
It's always some sort of money. I'm broke. Trying to find a third job to pay off my loans faster. I wish I can win something big to pay off my loans.
Is this my therapy page.
It is smart to know your limitations. Know where you stand is key to success.
Sometimes you think you are doing great and helping others, but boy isn't funny how it backfires at you for no good reason other than the person just likes to be selfish.
It is hard to fix a broken relationship. Things won't be the same. It's so hard. Best is to walk away and keep it must another memory.
Don't give people something for them to deposit on "you," because they will use that to cash it out later against you. Be careful. People are always looking for ways to get you and make you weaker. An honest person can be looked down upon and concerned a "fool."
Children of the Waxing Crescent tend to be similar to those born under the New Moon - you are adventurous, joyous and full of curiosity. But there one key difference: you tend to be more timid and conservative when it comes to taking risks and trying new things. In fact, you have a tendency to cling to the past and stay in your comfort zone. Being relatively weak in energy, your instinct is to ensure your own security above all. It is absolutely crucial for a child of the Waxing Crescent to learn to be more independent and courageous. Embrace discomfort, awkwardness, and struggle. Accept potential failure and pain as a necessary side-effect of risk-taking. Challenging yourself and taking risks is the only way you can grow and develop into a fully actualized individual.
Sometimes - I can't do it. The things I'm supposed to do is beyond my understanding. I hate it. I feel I'm always doing bad things and upsetting someone out there. I don't know what's on another side of this world. multiple denominational worlds and we stuck at one.
There are things in life you can't change. It just won't happen no matter what you try to do. Say a lie loud enough and long enough it becomes the truth.
For the first time in a month, I went to the grocery store. It seems cold out there. Everyone looks in a hurry to get something and leave. I"m sad. What have we become? Why this happening now?
Dealing with depressing is annoying. Dealing with toxic people is worse than anything I can imaging. No cure for that. You leave them alone, you kick them out of your life, but they still come back and shit on you.
I don't know how people do it with more than one. It does take a special kind of person to do it. You have to be caring and patient. I've been reaching my limit with my child for sure. It's fun to play with her, but sometimes you need a 10 min break. She wants to play and hang around you... she doesn't know any better. The big part and tough part is teaching them the right ways initially. That takes time and work right off the bat, but it pays off. (i think). It is a lot, and you have to work/research it like its stock market of job. You need to keep them engaged and learning. It's easy to just "Maintain" and get through the day without them screaming, but that's not your goal. For me, the toughest is still tough love... you give them something, and they want more and get mad when they don't get it. It's like they are better off not having it...
Money is getting shorter by the day. No job and nothing around. It feels so empty. This life is flat out empty. I'm scared of the unknown. It's scary out there. I can't catch a breath. Bills due this month and I have no idea what to do. We are on lockdown, but I need to take a walk. I need to get out of here. This apartment is toxic so is everything else around me.
The best part about all of this is how people are trying to work together. It seems to be that most people are working on themselves a lot more now. I see a group of people walking their dogs a lot more now. driveway socializing as well.
I pretty much spent all day working on how to help others connect to an online meeting. It's crazy how many people out there still having issues with technology. I feel it's never too late to help others.
I like to test few things today
I don't think I know what I'm doing. It seems I'm making a lot of mistakes lately.
It's amazing to me how a person changes when they are not around you. You do things for them for the sake of help, but in a return they talk shit about you. Bring you down to a level of questioning your life. Not good.
Be careful and watch out for people who tries to get into your heart through manipulation. That kind of personality will kill you from the inside. Once you dead from the inside, then, you don't care and that's a problem. Bless us all during this virus pandemic craze.
As far as I know, this virus might be best for the overall health of the planet. I feel when the plant feels it's dying, it pushes out its defense system. Natural is taking a break from us. I wish we were better at taking care of this plant. It's much needed. Stop killing forests, grow backyard produce, have few backyard chickens.
Eat bag of shit
So today has been great, rain, tea, warm home... feeling good working from home.
say no more
It's late and I'm cold. It's cold in here. I'm sitting at the back patio smoking. It's so quiet that I can hear the tobacco burns as I take a drag. I feel love in the air.
What a night. I just got back from an hour-long running after my dog. I was feeling drained and a little sick feeling to my chest and stomach, but after chasing my dog beyond the neighbor area and finally caught him. I put his leash on, and we walked back. It took us 30 minutes to get home. I honestly felt good physically. Maybe, that's his way of speaking to me that I needed to get out for a walk, so he had to do what he needed to do to make it happened. I appreciate him so much. Dogs are indeed a man's friend. Thank you and good night.
Too many misty to recover from it
Allhamudellah for everything...
Sometimes, I can't sleep and can't breathe. I feel there is a weight pushing on my chest. Sad and confused. The feeling of "judgment" after this life is a little overwhelming. Sometimes, I can't do the things I'm asked to do. I just want to be left alone and play with my life until the end without the worry of feeling judged. Ugh, this life just keeps getting narrower in my eyes and heart. Take a breath my, friend.
A virus is making us not travel not do business. Market crash. Things were not going on the right path. A lot of it is numbers with no support. An illusion.
شجرة الامام علی (ع علی (ع بن ابیطالب بن عبدالمطلب بن هاشم بن عبد مناف بن قصی بن کلاب بن مرت بن کعب بن لوی بن غالب بن فهر بن مالک بن نضر بن کنانه بن خزیمه بن مدرکه بن الیاس بن مضر بن نزار بن معد بن عدنان بن أد بن ادد بن السیع بن الهمیس بن بنت بن سلامان بن حمل بن قیدار بن اسمائیل (ع بن ابراهیم خلیل الله (ع بن تارخ بن تاحور بن شاروع بن ابرغو بن تالغ بن عامر بن شالح بن ارفخشذ بن سام (ع بن نوح (ع) بن لمک بن متوشلخ بن اخنوخ بن یارد بن مهلاءل بن قینان بن انوش بن شیث (ع بن آدم ابی البشر (ع
Lately, I have been torn between keeping my life as is or change it. It seems I'm over the same routing. I'm bored with this world. No matter where I go, I'm not satisfied. There's something inside me that tells me this is just a flash of reality, but I'm missing. I always have these feelings that something is monitoring us. Sitting at a public bench or at the airport. It seems everyone is trying to get somewhere in a hurry. We are amazing creatures.
I have no more thoughts. I'm excited about my trip and I'm also looking forward to meeting new people. I like to talk to others about random stuff. Lately, it seems everyone is trying to take your spot. Sometimes, I feel I have something no one can achieve, but I don't have it. and everything that I have accomplished is fairly easy to do and nothing outrages. But, people seem to want to have whatever you have for their own goods.
This is sad news, but this is what the world has become.
sometimes, I wish I know what I'm doing.
lol, this sucks.
Data with power
قال الإمام علي بن ابي طالب عليه السلام: #الــنوم : سلطان لايرفض له أمر.. #الـجوع : كافر لا يرحم أحدا.. #الـــهم : سيف بارد في الضلوع الدافئة.. #الــثقة : قافله تحملك للأمام.. #السكوت : ذهب.. #القناعة : كنز لا يفنى.. #الحـقد : اشتعال دون نار ولا دخان.. #التشمت : مقدار نقص الثقة بالنفس.. #الغرور : قباحة المنظر و المعشر.. #الصدق : مفتاح لأقسى القلوب.. #الظـلم : ظلمات.. #الخيـانة : نهاية.. #التسامح : بداية.. #الصداقة : عملة نادر.. #الخوف : كما الغرق في بركة دون ماء.. #الشوق : دفء.. #الأمانة : رسالة إنسانية.. #الرحمة : من صفات الله التي أهداها البشر.. #البخــل : حفظ الممتلكات لللصوص.. #الغضب : مفتاح الجنون.. #الكراهية : فشل القلب.. #التشاؤم : نقص الايمان بالله.. #الصـبر : مفتاح الفرج .. قال الامام علي (ع): (مادام لي رباً يرى حالي فما لي أدفن في اليأس أمالی)
Not all people you talk to are your friends or keep your conversation to the best of your interest. Everyone wants to start a conversation with someone else on your account, so be careful what you say to others. Whatever you say, at someday, it will be used against you. Life is full of surprises. Be yourself and enjoy your self. Reward yourself and never let anyone else step on your comfort environment. Build your domain for your own good. Don't be afraid to be selfish. Help others by bettering yourself.
Sometimes we run into problems, and we fix them. Sometimes we run into a good time, and we enjoy them. However, there are times where you can't fix or enjoy a moment. It is so hard to come back from a disappointment from someone you trusted so much. Sometimes, walking away is the best fix to any problem. Most of us reach a level of trying of no return. Most of us just give up and walk away. Life is short to worry about fixing others — no reason to do that fix yourself, strengthening yourself to be a better person. The world will be on your side. Just enjoy your short journey in this place, aka earth.
I like it when people say the word "supper" when referring to dinner time. Let's get supper sounds much more appealing than "let's get dinner" I like it.
This page is stupid..........
You snooze you lose. I never thought news is sleeping that it was sneezing. Drive on the highway it’s quite empty road. I see a few trucks here in there but it’s beautiful countryside in Missouri. I was greeted by a bald eagle. Life is good
It's snowing today and I love that feeling of me not going to work. I love just to watch it, but not so much driving in it. I hate working with snow, I hate shoveling snow, but it's naturals most beautiful thing to watch, at least for me. Enjoy this weather... I wish everyone great success this year and many years to come.
I keep going around and around about things. I can't justify how I feel about everything. It seems I'm bipolar, uncomfortable, stressed, nightmares dreams. deep breath.. inhale/exhale
I've been having a hard time breathing. This is due to me not working out enough. I chill most of the day and night. No job and mamas cooking is good. fuck this shit. I'm bored.
Love comes in many faces and shapes. It's hard when you look at someone at there's a fear of loving them. So, you get preserved and hide and put your guards up. You are choosing to be alone because of the wrong people around you. Be careful who smiles in your face. Look at their actions to figure out their true intentions. Many say I'm your friend, but really, everyone is looking after their own interests in you. It's not an easy job. Your job is to be who you are, and if you believe in God, do practices to bring you closer to him. Understand the creations and beyond. Take your time, and your time will come just like everyone else.
I have no idea what I'm doing lately. I'm tired. I can't keep myself above water. Tons of bills. low pay. broken car. high rent. student debt on an unfished degree. single and unhealthy.
ما الذي يحدث في هذا الزمان كبرت المنازل وصغرت الأسر !! تطور الطب وساءت الصحة !! زادت الاموال وقلت الصدقة !! زادت المعرفة وقلت الحكمة!! وكثر الأصدقاء الافتراضيون وأختفو الحقيقيون!!!! تنوعت الساعات وقلت قيمة الوقت ،،،وكثر البشر وفقدت البشرية ...!!!
It seems I'm having a little rough time with the lady. I'm not sure what I want out of our relationship. We all have our issues. The good - The bad - The ugly. Sometimes I feel it's better off to be alone. Dealing with others can be tiring and sometimes embarrassing at times. So, I have no idea what to do. It's either accept the situation and grow up and move on, or walk away and go back to my old solo days. Been alone has its disadvantages. I don't' like it, but it's safer from others who want to hurt you with their words. Also, be careful who you tell your personal biz. I've learned that many listen to you to hurt you later. Never open up to anyone at work or your neighbor. Stay humble and mind your own business.
Is it just I, or that's the norm to "notice" a lot more construction during winter than summer times. It seems, every winter, we are having tons of streets closing due to construction? Why those construction projects get done over the summer?
Just remember, everyone wants your job. No matter what I do for a living, I always get called out on how easy I have it. I worked as a drywaller, housekeeping, dishwashing; all of those are hard jobs, but I always someone tells me, "I'm lucky." I think it's the way I do things. I make things look easy for working hard, I believe, maybe not. Maybe, I do have it "easy."
There are many types of people in this world, but recently I witnessed a personality that genuinely wants to break you to make you feel worthless. Everything you do is pointless and stupid. So much energy to keep things going. No desire to do anything but to walk away from this mess. It's sad when you feel someone doesn't love you but with you just because they are a lazy ass and nothing but hate towards anyone happy. Why? Why does someone love hating on others? What's the joy in this?
Today on my way to work, I almost witness a tragic car accident. The lady was in a hurry and ran a red light, and from what I've noticed, she didn't realize it was a red light. Sad. Luckily, everyone else was aware. She was in a hurry to get to work or somewhere urgently. Whatever it is, I hope she gets there on time safely.
Donuts, Yummy! I love them. I wish I could eat them all the time, but I know anything of too much is bad for you. It's amazing how easily a human system can just shut down from certain food. I guess anything unnatural to the body is bad for you, but how do we define unnatural things? I don't know.
I love setting at the airport to watch people. It seems we are all in a hurry to go somewhere. Everyone has a goal to make it somewhere. We all so different in many ways. Each person has a different opinion about life. Each person has different needs. Humans are such perfect independent creatures. I'm sitting here and admiring each one of us. We are great!
Do you travel often? If so, have you seen airplane bathrooms? Like, how in the world a "full-size" individual can fit in those things? I'm an average built, and I can hardly wash do anything. What's the point of having such tiny bathrooms? Is, is safety concerns? Is it because of the "limited" space?
Sometimes, I think about the old days. I used to be busy with friends all the time. It seems I had the energy to do things and just be myself. I've met a lot of people throughout the old days, but I wish I looked at those days like how I do now.
This is as easy as I thought, but as hard as I imagined.
So far, today has been a very productive day for me. We had random issues with the printer and it resolved now. There are a few updates, but, I'm going to wait until Monday.
I guess, I'm at stopping point where I need to go.
there Are few good middle eastern and African places here in Omaha. My fav one is el basha, international cafe is another good one.
Indeed my friend
I love my job. I get to work outside the office once a while. This is the only job where I don't feel taking lunch or thinking about going home. A lot of times, I don't feel I want to go home, but I got obligations to get to, and I have a "life" sort off. I have a cute little dog named Musi. The best part of getting home, he's waiting for you "food" by the door. He is a French bulldog, and he's only two years old.
The pain the joy and the whole life thing is a bit of a joke. The question is why? why we have to deal with all of this? why it is so hard to look I the mirror and say, you know what, I'm going to be "ok" today. There is a moment where I think, it's all fun and jokes until your soul opens up to the other side of the world. The "truth" that holds it all together. I'm angry, I'm stressed, and I can't pull myself out of my debt no matter what I do. Time after time things just keeps adding up. I'm completely confused and lost. I keep my prayers going and I hope for the best.
something is going to happen to us and we are not aware of it. Not good!
Hello, World! During what the world is going through lately, and how most of us are isolating, but yet we are working together to solve this pandemic, I thought to myself, Would it be nice to post my rage anonymously without someone judging me? Would it be nice to post whatever on my mind to relieve some stress without the feeling of someone going to point my issues back at me? Therefore, I've created this. It's my random rage and my diary. No names no emails - post your pain and relieve your stress anonymously :)